My husband told me earlier this week, unexpectedly, that he could watch my son on Friday morning so I can go to an appointment and then he said he would stay home and I could take the whole day to work on my writing and my business.
My plan is to spend the day writing and creating some content for my website. I have a couple of projects that need a few hours of uninterrupted time to really get some momentum going.
You’d think I’d be excited and energized. A whole day to myself to do whatever I want!
The closer the day gets, the more resistance I feel.
When I noticed I was feeling resistance (at first I just felt irritated and thought it was because of external circumstances) I knew I needed to look at my thoughts.
I believe our thoughts cause our feelings, which in turn cause our actions and, therefore, our results.
So, what have I been thinking about this gift of a day?
- It’s not enough time to get anything real done.
- What if nothing comes and I end up with a blank page?
- What if I waste the day?
- What am I going to write?
All of my questions are just thoughts in disguise: What if nothing comes and I end up with a blank page? = Nothing will come and I’ll end up with a blank page.
All of these thoughts cause me to feel anxious, which leads me to procrastinate, which will result in a blank page at the end of the day. It’s a self-fulfilling prophecy.
Now that I’m aware of my thoughts, I can question them. None of them are The Truth, they are just thoughts.
Now that I’m aware of my thoughts, I can respond to them in a calm manner:
- Whatever I get done is what I need to get done.
- You will get words on the page and that’s the goal.
- You won’t waste the day; you will live it. That’s all that’s required.
- You know what you need to write.
I can reassure the part of myself that generates all these negative thoughts and choose to focus on thoughts generated in another part of myself: All is well.
When I look at the day ahead and the resistance I feel, I realize I may need to take myself on a little Artist Date, rather than just sit at a desk all day. Maybe I’ll run or go to yoga, as physical exercise always clears my mind.
Once I’ve worked through all my negative thoughts, I realize I’m not feeling irritated, or resistant, any longer. I can see the day ahead for what it is: A true gift.
Now I feel energized and excited, which I know will help me get words on the page and make progress on my projects.
What are you thinking about your writing time?
**For all Hudson area NaNoWriMo participants: I’ll be hosting another Write-In at Rodger’s Memorial Library on the evening of November 25, 2014. Come join your fellow writers as we crank out the words! For more information, click here.**